Okay...this may get long! 
Honestly i woulndt blame anyone for not
responding to this cuz it may take up too much time reading, and I totally would understand (you guys have other things to do lol).
I hope everyone's doin well. How's life been to y'all? I know I dont come on here much anymore,
but I've missed you! Not to pick favorites, but esp you Taryn lol. =D
Um...I have this mini little "dilemma." I cant really voice it to my friends at school, either, or my brothers and sister, whom I normally tell
everything to. Well...okay here it goes. It's a tad bit embarrassing.
Okay, so I have an insy-weensy little crush on my professor. I'm almost 20 and he's about 30...he's still young (at least I'm not crushing over
someone old enough to be my dad! lol) I've liked him for about a month and a half now (the semester's almost over, 2 more weeks to go), and I've
kind of gotten hints from him that he likes me back. BUT I hope it's not just all wishful thinking lol. I'll tell you the "hints" and try to
be unbiased about it haha. Well…he gives me loads of more eye contact than any other student in the class, and holds eye contact with me really long.
When I raise my hand (really quickly, like for a split second) to say something and then put it down cuz I realize he's still talking, he'll cut
himself pretty short and immediately call on me. A few times when he's talking and giving me straight eye contact, he thinks that I was raising my hand and
asks "did you have a question" and I never even had raised my hand lol. He's only mistaken this with me, no other students.
After class once, when I had a question about his class counting as a Bio requirement for my B.S. degree (it's cognitive psych) he went to find out from
the head of the department as soon as I finished asking (I was really surprised he wanted to find out for me that immediately!) most teachers
are the complete opposite) and invited me to come along, but I had to go to work, and the next morning spotted me in the hall and held me for like 5 minutes
when he could have just told me the class didn't count in like 30 seconds lol, and while he talks to me, he looked from my eyes to my lips once or twice
(it was kind of like, unexpected) and was fidgeting with his collar a lot. He also was like excessively apologetic and chatty and was suggesting ways to get
around the requirement, but then at the end, he totally didn't make sense when he was talking: he's like "um, so yeah, it [the class] doesn't
count as of now…and well…I really don't know anything" and gave me a funny sheepish look.
Also (Ive noticed this many times before) when I have to approach his desk for either a question or handing in a quiz or whatever, as I walk up, he tends to
watch my hips as I'm walking up to his desk (or today, when I walked up to his office, same deal) (um…I guess you could say that I have
well…"curvy" hips lol). I met him in his office for advice on my major and on the possibility of a Ph. D. program since he came out of Grad school
not too long ago (I was judging by how young he looked), and he talked with me for almost a straight hour (all my meetings with previous teachers have been
maybe 15 min or less, so Ive never had that experience with a teacher before) but t/o our discussion, he kept coming closer to me while he was talking.
Weirdly, whenever I crossed my legs, he would cross his (I don't like when guys cross their legs lol, but it was amusing that I did it, he did it). Then I
tend to do shit like look at something if it strikes me as odd or whatnot (lol…that's just me..I do that a lot), so I was looking at his sock (his legs
were crossed, so his sock was showing and it had like a weird design lol…I can be ADD sometimes and…oooo, shiny! =P) and he immediately got an embarrassed look
on his face and pulled down his pant leg and started re-tying his already tied shoe and was fidgeting for about 3 min afterwards.
When I was talking about how I wasn't sure of sticking with a psych major and was thinking about picking up an education major, while he knew it was my
second year (but I have enough credits to be a junior, and he knew that as well), he still asked me how old I was. Then stuff like my GPA and ACT score, and
when I told him, he continuously complimented me on my "intelligence" (lol) and kept saying the word "attractive": "The grad
school's will find you very attractive." Then a few minutes later, reworded the same sentence: "yea, you'll be very attractive to the grad
schools." I asked him if he was fresh out of grad school (since he tells us he's new to our school, only been here 2 years) and he gave me like a mini
confused/amused look, so I was like "oh, no, I didn't mean that you don't' seem experienced, I meant cuz you look young) and he like got all
shy and was like "oh, how old do you think I am?" and I'm like, idk, 28, and he looked away and was all "that's really close" so
I'm like, "when'dya graduate from Grad school?" and he's like "um…idk...um, I don't remember!" and then giggled.
And it was funny cuz he started to inspect his framed diplomas on his wall and still wouldn't tell me the exact
year…in the end, he just said he graduated "last year"…which, afterwards, when I thought about it, doesn't make much sense considering that
he's been teaching at our school for 2 years and told us he was teaching at another school before ours as well.
Lol. Then when he was telling me the "perks" of being a professor (an option you get when you complete grad school) is you "don't have to
answer to a boss" and can "do whatever you want" and "cant get fired"…(idk, I may be reading into that one a tad bit, but if you were
there, it looked like he was suggesting that he could do something not so "professional" and get away with it).
He told me grad school takes a few years, but kept repeatedly (I don't mean once or twice, cuz w/e, that would be normal) bringing up the question
of "how early I'd like to start a family" and things like that (he kind of got a bit personal for a male professor to a female student, imo). He
mentioned that also when he was talking about "not getting fired"…"oh, if youre planning to start a family, idk if you are?, a professor is a
secure job!" He mentioned "starting a family" like, 5 or 6 time at least, and it just struck me as odd.
I didn't really know what to make of it (the fact that he was pushing that topic…what the hell is that supposed to mean? Lol) Then whenever I'd try to
get up and thank him, then leave (like, signal it by putting my hand to pick up my bookbag and sweater), he'd start talking more. It was a weird experience
for me. But, as I said, I kind of have a crush on him…he's really cute and in shape (his body type reminds me a LOT of JC's lol) and SO funny, and sooo
smart and caring. Uh…what do I make of this? lol. I've daydreamed about "making a move"…but I wouldn't actually do that. Even tho I make up
little fantasies about it lol. But idk…what do you guys think? Do you guys think I'm just being silly? Or 
? Or...maybe there's a chance at a (I woundnt say
long-lasting) relationship? (wow that's so not me, tho! I never like, rebel against the "rules" or anything like that…but I'm cant
help it, I find myself always thinking about him! Idk why!) Do you guys think by the things I told you, that he actually likes me back too, or that I'm
reading into his behavior too much? ? (WOW sorry this got so long btw!)
So, basically, in short:
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OH...and 
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